Emptiness

So, my brain seems to have gone into a state of 'I really don't give a fuck anymore' with this dating thing. I am so disillusioned with it all that I'm pretty much just accepting dates left, right and centre, with no real thought as to who the person is, what they want or where they're likely to take me. You know why? Because things just can't possibly get worse.

Think about it - I've had 3 horrific dates in the last however long. The last one was on such a level of horrific that I'm still not quite recovered from the fit of laughter/shock that it caused. So, I know that a date can't be worse than that.

In an attempt to improve my hit rate, I'm going to go on a date this Friday with a man who appears to be northern european. He likes Devon Rex cats and his name is Christian, so I'm thinking he can't be too bad. There are also 2 others who seem relatively normal, so I might just test them out too. I don't care if I'm not going into it with the right attitude - my heart has literally had enough; it can't take any more emotions and it can't be fucked to get excited about anything. So I'll go, and treat the dates like a job interview, and see if any of them are good enough to be shortlisted.